Doodles and non interesting updates

Hey again.

I really don't know how to update this thing anymore, nothing is happening to me. Should prepare for a presentation on a song and an artist, but my nerves have gotten to me now. *in class*

Been doodling a little I suppose.

Dat spider, I guess. xP

- Sara

Uncertainties and other humbug.

Didn't know what else to put up for a title. Felt like I should update this thing, as it's been a little while since last time.

I don't really have much to talk about. Been sick for a week, having the flu. Not that anyone cares. xD
Tried to doodle a little, but lately my mood have been at the bottom. I'm stressed and I have too much on my mind, so I don't feel like drawing much. Basically I have grown tired of everything, and I don't know how much more I can stand. I don't even know why I feel like this, there is no reason for it. It's just... It feels like I'm tired of everything there is. Myself, my art, I'm tired of being tired, tired of not knowing who I am, tired of wondering about personal issues, tired of being paranoid... I'm sick of everything, hopefully I wont wake up tomorrow.

Anyway. Going to buy christmas presents soon. Hopefully people wont be angry at me for not getting them anime junk this year. Hehe.

- Sara

Art spree, much?

Nah, not really.

Nothing's going on today. I'm sitting in math class, not understanding a shit. My mood level is at maximum EMO at the moment, so I'm exploring Paint Tool Sai a little. *laughs sarcastically*
Going home today, will waste my little time free from exhaustion on Supernatural and Clannad otome I suppose. Perhaps some doodling, I dunno.

Sneak peak time~

Oh, the anatomy.
Will try out new shading and such, perhaps play around with some shiny effects, I'm not sure yet.
... Hush, I know the anatomy is way off. Ugh. Those arms.

Anyway, not sure, but I think I have broken a great friendship. It's probably for the best, as the things he is doing can ruin his future and me and my friend's as well, yet I can't help but to have this icky feeling inside. We had a rant out yesterday, and I have to admit to myself that I don't know if it's wise that I hang out with him anymore. Tried to talk with him over the phone today, but he kinda brushed me off and didn't say much. Is it my fault that he is doing what he's doing? I'm starting to seriously wonder now, I seem to have that.. depressing effect on people.
So I've might lost  great friend whom I have considered as a brother for nearly 4 years now. He saved me during, err, middle school or junior high? I always felt like I owed him my life, and now it's ended like this. Great. *goes off to die in a corner now*

Don't think I have anything else to say. See ya all.

- Ai

New steps into the world.

... Or something like that.

I'm currently finding myself in my comfy little baw-box, where I can relax with my stupid thoughts. I've been there for a while, and though it's a negative box, not everything seems to be bad. I've thought through things about myself, about my personality and style and how I want to change for the better. I mean, I can't walk around being all "baw, I'm so tragic, boooh" all the time. Also, I should start thinking through what I say and what I do, and also stop raging all the time.

So then the thought hit me like a bullet train. How do I want to be? Who am I, and what do I really want to do with my life? I have no clue, to be honest, but during the latest months I have started to feel pulled towards more feminine lines. I am more interested in shoes than certain games, I enjoy shopping for clothes and so on. Who would have thought that? I mean, I'm manly after all. I catch myself trying to fix my damn hair all the time, to make sure it doesn't look bad... >_>
I have no idea what's happening to me.
So I've considered, as I am starting to enjoy the small happy girly-things, and also gotten more interested in designs. (of course, it's not gone so far that I want to design anything yet, I just find deigns fascinating. It's not something I wanna do for a living, though). I should try to be more feminine. Perhaps I will get more lucky on the love font as well then. >///>
I mean, sure, I joke around about being forever alone in the future. But to be honest, it's not something I truly want to. (I totally sounds like some lovesick bastard).
Anyway, though I am afraid to admit this to myself and the world; I basically want to become a woman. A more mature person who is more secure of herself, yet I hope to keep my humor.

*cough*ThereforeIamgoingtotryapplyingmakeupatsomepoint*cough* it must be done.

- Ai

The boring days continue

Nothing is happening lately... FFFH! So I'm not being lazy with updates, it's just that... Nothing is freakin' happening.

Have spent some time home, hanging around with my dog and cat; Bonita and Cass. <3
Also spent some time with Kèrri-pon. Finally I got my tablet back, which she have been borrowing, so I can finally doodle again. I had promised myself not to draw a Halloween drawing, yet my first doodle ended up with this shit here...

It's supposed to be a witch version of teenager-Fleur, holding two marionettes of Wing and Ciel. I was thinking on having fun with glow-effects and such, but I don't know if I'll bother to finish the drawing. I hate outlining, and as you can see I have only outlined the head. Dx

*sinks down in corner while listening to Japanese radio on iTunes* I BLAME THEE FOR THIS, FU-PON!! D<

Oh, that's right! Was to the cinema with Kèrri-pon, Muffin, Zingzo and Mmmmmmaren? Her name was Maren, right? I'm not good with names...
We watched Tintin: The Mystery of the Unicorn. To be honest I was really suspicious to it, as I really love the old cartoons. But it was genius, and people could hear me and Kèrri laughing our asses off in there. xD

That's all for now I guess. Happy Halloween.
- Ai

A whole new obsession.

As the title pretty much explains, I have gone obsessed over something new. Something, which have upgraded my otaku power to a whole new level. I have started to game and download otome games.

Now you probably rip out your hair and think "what the hell is an otome game? Speak English, you retarded pie!" Well. As kind as I am, I have decided to tell you exactly what this sort of game is. It is rather addictive, though, so if you feel like trying it out and you go obsessed; I wont be blamed.

An otome game is a game where you play as one main character, and one only. Otome stands for "young maiden", which means that whenever a game says "otome", it's most likely for girls. Anyway, you play as this one girl through a visual novel type of game where you meet a certain amount of guys during the gameplay. Mostly it's 3, 4 or 6 guys, and they all have different personalities. As you play, you will get choices that will determine which of the characters you will fall in love with, and to which ending you will get. There are several endings, so when you have finished the game, it doesn't mean you have finished the plot or the gameplay. Each of the guys have each of their plot, and they all mostly have like three different endings.
Otome games are most often in Japanese, which means it can be difficult to find the known ones in English. And of course; most of the downloads are demos. You have to be good to find a free version of a full game. I was just lucky with Yo-Jin-Bo (one of the games I have downloaded).

I know, it sounds like shit. But it's so fun. ; n ;
Currently I have only tried a few, but I do have two favorites; RE:Alistar++ and Yo-Jin-Bo: The Bodyguards. Curretly I'm trying my hardest to download Heart no Kuni no Alice: Wonderful ~ Wonder World~, which seems to be rather hard. It's nearly impossible to find it in English, and so I decided to just try and download the Japanese version; which have like 20+ parts I have to download. Then I need a translator! Dx
Also, I will soon get to try out the known game Clannad, which had an anime and manga based on it. A friend of mine have gotten a download of the full game~ Ah, so happy~ *shot*

If I ever get to finish the downloading, get a translator that works and play it, though, I will most likely post a review here. If anyone cares. >_>
Plus the site to where I downloaded it and probably where I got the translator - if it works.

In my personal life nothing special have happened. There's a movie festival coming up which my class are going to. Also, I have been spending a lot of time geeking anime. One called Sket-Dance, which Kèrri and I found through a crossover with Gintama, have proved itself worthy of our eyes. We have gone obsessed. xD

That's all I've got for now.
Mata ne <3

- Ai

The title which ran away~

Because I couldn't think of a title. Period.


Not much have really happened while I forgot to update this thing. I've been hanging around a lot with Teci-chan, derping Hetalia which I am now completely obsessed over. Kesese~ Prussia. <3
Also been derping around with Kèrri-pon, because she's an amazing person who is one of the funniest persons ever. Been watching some Sket Dance and Gintama with her. <3


Nothing else have really happened. My mood's been at the bottom for a while now, and it feels like a black hole is eating me from the inside. xD
But I wont start being all emo'ish about it. I bet it's nothing to worry about.


- Sara.